Morning
A quick rustling flutter. Like papers being blown in the wind. A light, whispery sound. I am in my usual morning pose, on my front stoop with a cup of coffee in hand, my head turned upward. Again it comes. The shadow follows silently along the plane of the front of the red house across the street, banks a hard angle on the ground, and slides over the road until it is lost in the shadow of my own house.
I sip, and I wait. Again it comes, the many dark and white bodies moving in unison behind the webwork of telephone lines which are woven up, down and across the street. Their bodies move like musical notes being played upon those lines. Though they move quickly, the whispery sound and the graceful curves and streams of their path paint a smooth, liquid visual song. Sultry. The songs are as varied as their configurations, changing as they change their direction.
I sip. They return from another direction, turn and come back, carving sensuous forms in the morning sky, defining spaces with their trailing arcs of flight. The black, the grey and the white shifting in space. Forty four wings working together to create beautiful morning music for any who care to watch. Listen.
February 24, 2001
The First Car
A puddle of fear lays on the cold tiles near his body; expelled, no doubt, at the moment of impact. I can't be sure, but I think he sees me leaning over his ruined body. Yes, I am quite certain we connect for a moment, or maybe it is just hope on my part. His beak is moving soundlessly, his stiff wings jerking forward and back at the memory of flight.
A disembodied computerized male voice announces over the loudspeaker that the next train is due in two minutes.
Balboa Park BART Station, April 19, 2002
Where Do They Come From?
I noticed a violent fluttering motion out of the corner of my eye and I turn to see a large brown and white pigeon jumping up and down around a smaller, gray and white pigeon. The smaller is lying huddled in the corner of a stone bench, which encircles a small grassy area.
The lunch crowd is here. Men and women in their business attire, trying to free themselves from the confines of their cubicle walls, the stale, processed office building air, and the artificial lights; trying to connect - however briefly - with the other elements of life; the sun, the scent of the bay, the sound of the school children playing their noisy and frenetic games, the names of which most of the observers have long ago forgotten.
The larger of the two pigeons ceases his attack and heads off, his own lunch hour having ended, perhaps. I look at the form of the smaller pigeon and feel my heart sink. I am quite sure she is dead, yet this alone is not what saddens me. Rather, it is the site of yet another pigeon, a long time friend of the deceased, most likely. She is fretting and nervous and frantic. She is walking and hopping around the motionless form, lightly touching her with her beak. Trying, it seems, to awaken her. The pigeon friend becomes even more frantic, hopping quickly around the form, cooing softly, fruitlessly trying to awaken her friend.
After many long minutes, the pigeon friend begins to walk away, returns and touches the form again, then retreats, then returns. FInally, she lifts off and sets a low course over to the rest of her crowd.
I continue to study the form. I wonder about the notion that one never, in fact, sees baby pigeons, which causes me to wonder where they come from. Which also causes me to wonder where they go. I return to my own airless office to expend my energies for the afternoon.
At the end of the day, I return to the bench, curious to see if perhaps the pigeon had simply been in shock and had lifted off to join her friends. I also want to make sure she is not suffering or in any pain. What meets my eyes is a site I still can't quite understand. Lying in exactly the same place the pigeon had been - at the corner of the bench - is a homeless man, lying on his side, his head exactly where the pigeon's had rested.
Market + Embarcadero, May, 2002